Never Ending Nights

For where there is light, There must be darkness, Neither can exist without the other...

A Good Omen

Last night we had a family gathering which ended at around 3am in the morning, and it was fun playing Chor Tai Tee with my cousins (although I lost a number a times too...) but it was an interesting evening nevertheless. After awhile I strolled away from the happy crowd and sat by the fountain just to be by myself and listen to the music my Special Someone likes. And I felt a tear roll down my cheeck and as I looked up among the vines on the shelter of the fountain I saw 3 tiny flowers and I stood up and gentle stroke the flowers and smiled. For this is a sign of a good omen and I believe its trying to tell me that this year will be full of surprises and will impact me positively.

And thats not all, but when I looked at them I thought of a good poem motivational poem for you too :)

In the darkness of the fountain,
I pictured how things might have been,
How things would have been,
If you were still by my side,
Supporting me,
Cheering for me,
Caring for me,
Loving me,

And as I looked up,
3 Flowers lay still on the veins above,
And no other flowers could be seen,
I gently stroked them,
I smiled,
And I know that I must not stop here,
I have to keep moving forward,
I have to keep growing,
and to prove myself to you,
That I can be a better person,

And I know,
Deep down,
You still care for me,
Now is not the time to show it,
And you may believe,
That it can never be,
But love has found its way through many obsticales,
For it has no bounds,
Thus I continue to support you,
In anyway I can,
For I have Faith in you,
And there is no obsticales which is impossible,
No task to difficult,
And I know,
My lucky star is always watching you,
Supporting you,
Keeping you sage,
For I will always be with you,
To keep you safe,
To protect you,
For I will always be here...

Ok, not exactly how i remembered it but I think its alright :) Gambatteh my Dear!! I know you can do it!! We have faith in you :D

Song of the day:
I'm Just A Kid *Simple Plan*

Everyone is a kid at heart and no matter how we try not to admit it, am I right? :P

More then just memories...

Hey readers, I know I'm suppose to blog about the Bands Performance last Friday, but I haven't gotten the videos and some of the photos, but I'll upload up soon.

As the tittle sounds yes I'm emo at the moment... My best friend took me to Sunway Pyramid last night with her Sis and her boyfriend but when I was there I decided to go walk about by myself and... Well... When I started walking I started remembering when I went there with a SS (special someone) and visited the places where we went together and remembering what we did while we were there and... It felt... so happy... but at the same time... vcry sad... All those wonderful memories... All those wonderful moments... It feels like... It just vanished...

As I walked down to the lower grounds of Sunway Pyramid I saw that they were selling flowers at one of the inner rings so I decided to check it out, and I saw something which made me shed a tear down my cheeck... a Cherry Blossom Tree... aka Sakura Tree... and thats when I rememberd one of the most memorable things I said to her... "Dear... May our Love Bloom like the Sakura in the Spring..." I almost felt like going on my knees to cry... I really want you back... But I know that you need to concentrate on your studies and I'm going to respec your decision... and you said that we can never be together because of your parents... but deep down I hear a voice saying "I dont care... I dont care what your parents think... I love you and no matter what... My heart will always wait for you... I dont care how long it takes... I just... Want to be wraped in your arms again..."

I hope this doesnt distract you from your studies... I just needed to let it out... I know you can do it Special Someone... I have faith in you... now and always...

Message to Special Someone:

Don't Quit

When things go wrong as they sometimes will;
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill;
When the funds are low, and the debts are high;
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh;
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you can never tell how close you are;
It may be near when it seems afar.
So, stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
It's when things go wrong that you mustn't quit

Song of the day:
It's Gonna Be Love (Mandy Moore)

When ever I hear one of her songs... It always reminds me of you... And I feel as if... You were singing it to me... And I always loved when you sang to me one of your favorite songs...

3 Peice Painting + *Second Jamming Session*

Alright today we had out 2nd jam session and it really didn't go according to plan because of a few things;

1. We were suppose to play for about 2 hours but we ended up doing around 1 1/2 hours due to someone booked the room.
2. Our awesome tambourine player came late and we had to do jam without him.
3. We had a bit of technical problems and took awhile to get them fixed.

So far that was most of the problem but everything worked out fine. We practiced our 3rd song and we had a bit of trouble with it since we were practicing it for the first time today.

When we were preforming I tried a few vocal changes for the songs and in a way I think it worked :p but I have to keep practicing our 3rd song if not ill be in even more trouble... and at the same time I felt I could have done better too...

Soon after, we went for supper and we had Thai Food!! It was awesome, and I felt it was OK, not heavy not light but OK in my opinion especially the butter prawn lol.

Before I end this post here are some photos of today's event:

The studio we were in (its much smaller)

Fei checking the equipment

Greg who came late for the Jamming Session LOL

Andy in deep thought

Us at the Kampung Thai after jamming

Group Photo

I haven't seen Tom Yam disappear that fast before lol

Some of the other side dishes we orderd

And also before I end my blog, I'd like to share with you the song of the day!!

Save You (Simple Plan)

Its a sort of emo song but at the same time its emo in a good way and I really enjoy listening to it (and I'm not bored of it yet!! LOL)

3 Peice Painting + First Jam Session!!

So today we had our first jam session for a long time, but the only difference we are doing a FULL BAND!!! Which really got me really excited and in the singing mood. To be honest this was my first time performing in a large band compared to our usual 3 man band like we usually perform in XD but I am really excited to our upcoming performance and I know it would be all worth it :D

Alright the evening went according to plan, we went to the studio at around 9pm (we would have gotten there earlier but we had to stop and buy cat food at Ampang Point :p) when we arrived at the studio I was soooooo excited because it was my first time actually practicing in a studio and the feeling was just… Wow… words escaped me…

Alright when we started jamming something funny kept happening, my mikes cord kept coming off, at first I thought it was loose but after awhile I realized that I kept pressing the release button to release the cable… MY FAULT!!! XD

But the rest of the jamming session went alright we actually modified the songs we are performing to our liking and I think we made a good improvement to them too ;)

Soon our jamming session came to an end and we were all tired (well I know I was didn’t know about the rest… I think I strained my voice…) and when we got back I went online and chatted with my friends for awhile before heading to bed and I had a blast… THANKS GUYS!!!

Alright before I end this post I thought I’d introduce all the members of 3 Piece Painting +:


The Bass Guitarist of the band, he actually managed to give most of the songs we were performing a much more unique beat and it was awesome!!


He is the rocking Drummer, and when I mean rocking I mean he can really rock your world, and so far in my opinion he is one of the best drummers I know.


He is Isk and Fei’s sister’s boyfriend, he was a good addition to the band and he was skilled with the tambourine XP


Lead Guitarist and one of the original member of 3 Piece Painting + and if it wasn’t for him this jamming session couldn’t have happened!! He was also the person who came up with the name too.


Rhythm Guitarist and also one of the original members of 3 Piece Painting + and he is also one of my motivations to sing, and he also motivated me to sing better, THANKS ISK!!

Zenji/Nazrin (me)

Lead Vocal and original member of 3 Piece Painting, I’m also the blurriest of the bunch lol you should see me when I’m on stage :p

Alright now to end this blog with my usually song of the day


I Wanna Be Like You (Jonas Brothers ver.)


This is a classic song with a much more modern mix and to my honest opinion I think its kinda addictive :P Classic Song, New Beat, New Sounds I love it!!

The Good, The Bad, The Worse...

First week of the new year is almost coming to an end and there were a lot of good and bad things happening and some might effect me really badly... But I'll be explaining them from the good till the worse.


Well managed to get things with me and you back to normal but it may not be in the way I want it... but as long as I'm able to talk to you and be near you I should be happy right?

Also 3 Piece Painting + is having a performance this coming Friday for the orientation night and we are going to have our first Rehearsal as a Full Band this Sunday and I'm really looking forward to it.

Managed to settle most of my differences with my cousin Johan and we are on really good terms now and really happy for it and my success :D


Well wont be starting college till February and I know I should be happy but I cant wait that long... I have to be in college or else I'll be dead bored at home... And I should be following my mum to Bahrain but cant due to my performance and other events...

Still trying to find the melody for my song and it isn't going too well but I'm sure I'll come across one sooner or later... You never know right?

And lately haven't been feeling well... Mostly because of headache... *sigh* what to do?


I feel like I've been used... by someone who is supposedly close to me... I feel like the person only uses me to get to places or ask me to do things that the person cant do for themselves... And after that I felt so alone... That person made me so... Angry... Upset... And hurt me in a way that if you want to know more about it you have to ask me about it personally...


Well that's it for my post for today and I'll now end my post with a "What I'm Listening To" or "Music Video of the Day" till next time readers, Jia Ne

Music of the Day:
Brilliant Snow by Kazuki Kato

When the album first released I was so excited and I immediately fell in love with this song and it has always been in my phone and I listen to it all the time! And it was also the song I sang for a Special Someone for Valentines day ;)

Massive Headache and Mum is home!

Last night was one of the toughest night I have ever had. I had a really bad headache last night and it prevented me from sleeping and I kept tossing and turning no luck and I feel my temperature drop and starting having a heat rush which made matters worse. After that I took a warm and then a cold shower to help me get my temperature back but don't think it worked (cant remember and I think I banged my head on a wall too :S) then I went to my dad's room for another dose of Panadol and I was able to slowly sooth myself to sleep (I think) and I just passed out soon after.

One thing I noticed about this was that I always tend to have this every once a year or sometimes even more, what eludes me is the cause of it and I have no idea what is making me have all these massive headaches.

Putting all my trouble aside, my mum came home today! and I was very happy that she has returned from Bahrain even if it is only for 10 days, as long as she is here I feel more at home and less worried about things. And tomorrow she will be following me to college and able to meet someone who made a great impact in my life and I can never picture my life without that someone *blush*

well that is all for today readers, till next time Jia Ne!

I Like Long Walks and Pasar Malam (Night Market)

Today was a busy day for me today. This morning I went with my dad and sister to bring my grandpa and grandma (Dad's Parents) for a walk in KLCC park. It was a good day even though the weather was very hot, but it was great seeing my grandparents out of their house and we had a good walk and a good time :)

After that I received a sms from Wen and she was feeling down, so I went over and helped cheer her up and took her for Arabian food and had a good time chatting, and later we went to the Pasar Malam in Taman Muda and I was pretty excited, since I had never been to a Pasar Malam for a LONG time and I bought lots of stuff :p (went over my budget... again... :S) and yea I had fun, might upload some pictures later :P

Well now I'm home and really glad to be in the safety of my home :)

till next time readers Jia Ne :)

One more month??? I cant wait that long!!

Well its official, I can proceed to my level 2 and this would make it my final year in Malaysia before I move on, I was so excited when I saw my results and I felt like jumping but I played it cool (sort of :p). Was talking to some of my friends and apparently we only start back classes in February!! and I was like "What the ****!!" I know a guy should be happy with more free time but 1 more month!?! seriously I cant wait that long, I've been bored at home for the last 2 weeks and not to mention I had a really bad new years and the week was bad...

And it was all because of a single person... If you want to know just ask me and don't worry it was someone who was "supposedly" close to me... I will rant about that some other time and I'm trying not to be mean here, trying to keep my cool.

Well all that put aside there are a few things on my list that I'm looking forward to:
1. Mum is coming home from Bahrain
2. Going back to college (going to finish off my Basic Math and Stats)
3. Going to Level 2
4. Hopefully get to see my friend again ;)

For now I have to bare with this terrible internet connection which is driving me crazy!! (seriously) and I'm considering to blog what happened on my Birthday and such, till then Jia Ne


There is going to be some changes around here...

To all my readers I want to wish you a Happy New Year and yes I know its been a long time since I last blogged but I think its time I started again, first of I thought a 'New Look' was in order. Was planning on going with me "Never Ending Night" theme and currently working on the background and all so it will take awhile to get things in order.

Got my exam results today and I was pretty relieved that they were good (although it wasn't what I was targeting but oh well... And I would also like to say welcome back to my friend who was away, and when you told me you were still sick I have something special for you:

Super Huggiez "Hugz!!"

Well going to work on the other parts of this blog so till then Jia Ne!