Tired... But need to carry on...

Sleepy... But yet I can't sleep... I don't know why but lately I've been pushing myself too hard... And even if the job is already done... I scrap it and do it again... Cause I know I can do better... But Why can't I just see my best is good enough for now? Why do I always want to push my limit? I actually know the answer... Because I know I can do better... And I know that if I do push myself... I wont let myself down...

But lately... All this pushing... Isn't really good for my angina... And I need to rest more to keep my strength up... But I know that... If I keep my strength up... I can put in more work effort in order to do well... But no matter what... I'm always worrying... Always stressing myself... Always pushing myself too hard... Cause I know that in the past I never really took things seriously... And I always do what I want without the consideration of others... But I don't want that anymore... I'm sorry to all those I hurt in the past... Maybe if I was a bit better... Maybe we wouldn't have gotten further apart...

Also... Moving to the new house can be added to my stress I guess... But I'm having problems with some of my stuff as well... Just too much junk... But soon my mum will be back tomorrow and we can slowly start moving all our belongings to the new house...

But right now there are other things on my mind that are stressing me out which I wont be blogging about... Cause I feel its a bit personal... And only a few selected friends will be informed bout it...

I guess that's all for now... I'll be posting a new post maybe earliest by tomorrow... Till next time... Jia Ne